Time to Reflect
by, 02-21-2009 at 09:33 PM (418 Views)
I've had some down time today, some time to really think. I've been running non stop for so very long and I think I'm doing all I'm suppose to do but am I really? You know how things get. You are just caught up in the day to do stuff. Getting everyone where they need to be, getting meals, doing chores, cleaning house, doing laundry. I read scriptures, write in my journal when I remember. I fulfill callings at church and do them as best I can. I pray several times a day. But today as I reflected I realized I wasn't doing enough. I'm doing what I have to do to get by and no more. The Lord gave me everything and I'm just giving Him enough to get by on. I know that saying prayers is much different from engaging in meaningful prayer. Saying what I say and really, really meaning it. What would be different in my life with my Savior if I really said "what can I do for you today?" and really meant it? What would happen if I said "Lead me to someone in need or someone who wants to hear the gospel today" would He use me if I really meant it? I realized today while I claim to be a Christian, I am not really doing what I should be doing. I wonder what I would be like and how I would be different if I really lived my life for my Savior and really meant it not just I'll do what I need to to get by. As I begin a new week tomorrow I think it's time I rededicate myself to my Savior and give back to Him all He truly deserves from me. I don't want to say I love my Lord, I want to show Him I really do and change my life so He can use me.