On Life in General
by, 02-11-2009 at 04:17 AM (1306 Views)
The last few weeks have been annoying, frustrating and crazy. Spiritually, I believe that we are each here on earth for our souls to learn certain "lessons" (if you will) in life. Once our soul has acquired those lessons, learned from them, accepted them fully, we move on. (Where we go is another blog post entirely, )
I think one of my life lessons is for me to learn not to blindly trust everyone that crosses my path. I have this foolish problem, whenever I attempt anything in life, I put my entire heart and soul into it. I believe that anything worth doing, is worth doing well. However, in having this perspective, I often allow myself to be taken advantage of.
I get sucked into driving hours & hours to pick up and deliver materials, (over 5,000 miles in a month!) or supervise construction sites (and not get paid for my time or efforts), work on peoples computers for hours on end as though I haven't a single thing I really need to accomplish besides putting them first and then barely receive so much as an uttered Thank you.
Ironically, that "Thank you" would be enough if it were sincere, but more often that naught, it is simply a means to dismiss the effort and move along.
Regrettably, I always seem to assume that if one works hard and puts forth their best, their efforts shall (eventually) be rewarded; But at what cost?
Each time I allow myself to be taken advantage of in this manner, I trust those around me even less and I am finding that lately I don't want to extend myself at all.
Perhaps this is just self preservation, but I wonder if this is simply a life lesson in Humanity.
I am reminded of a quote that I heard while in High School (many many moons ago!), and was originally written by an anonymous Carnival pitchmen.
Humanity ain't always what's pretty. Some of the worst killers are pretty.
Humanity ain't always what sounds nice and falls smooth on the ear, 'cause any pitchman can charm a snake, but some pitchmen ain't too humane.
A person shows humanity when he's there if you need him, when he takes you in, when he has a genuine kind word, when he makes you feel not alone, when he makes your fight his fight.
That's what humanity is, if you want to know. And if we had a little more of it in this world, maybe we could get ourselves out of the handbasket we're in...or at least stop carrying that handbasket straight to Hell, the way we have been for so long.
Just idle ramblings for a Wednesday morning.