by, 05-20-2009 at 12:25 PM (967 Views)
Just have to get all this out.
I am so upset. Actually, I think I am calming down. I got my grades today for my 4 classes last semester. I was expecting 4 A's. I actually thought that is what I was going to get. Instead I got 3 A's and a B-! Ok so I know this sounds silly and insane, but a B- is the lowest you can get in Grad School. You can't get C's in my program - you have to retake it.
So what angers me, is I had no clue. I had an A and apparently the final exam and final paper brough my A all the way down to a B-??? I dont see how this is possible since I worked my butt of doing that paper and studying for the test. But apparently it did. I emailed my teacher (who is retiring now and this was her last class) to meet with me asap. She hasn't written back. I tried calling, no answer.
I told her I don't get it and asked for an explanation and if any extra work was available. I'm willing to do another project even. I just dont get it. Where did my A go?
Ok so why is this grade such a big deal? <<deep breaths>> I want a better GPA so that I can better my chances when I apply to PhD programs this Fall. My GPA would have significantly jumped had I gotten the 4 A's and now it just stayed the same. So yeah, I know there are other ways and this one class probably won't stop me from getting in somewhere, but it's the principle. Especially when it really was my best effort.
I also don't understand how some things like grades can be so easy for others when I really do try so hard. And it just seems effortless for others. I guess that goes on to other things in life, like why do others have such easy lives and some of us have the toughest?