I am so LONELY
by, 12-26-2008 at 01:25 PM (654 Views)
I have lived in Florida for 8 years but am a Kentucky Girl .
Even though I have lived here for so long I have no "REAL" friends here. I have a few ladies I knew from past jobs that I had but no true friendships. I mean these ladies are not the kind of friend you just call up on the phone to chat. We wouldn't really have any thing to say.
It's really not because I don't try. I am always super friendly to everyone I meet here. But it's like people are in too much of a dad blamed hurry to make any friends.
On top of everything else my very best friend in the world my cousin who lives in Ky we are drifting further and further apart. She is so wild sleepin around and getting in fights. It hurts me to even talk to her. All she wants to talk about is S*X and I was raised that a lady shouldn't talk about it. Much less bragging about it. I mean I was raised that you waited. But she is with differnet people every week. I mean live 5 or 6 people per week I am not joking.
Now that I am pregnant and with all the hormones I feel even more alone and like not even my hubby can relate to me. I mean he can't he's never been pregnant.
I know this is going to sound so childish and dumb but I just wish I had a best girl friend so bad I don't have any sisters and I just wish I had a best friend (besides hubby) to confide in. Sometimes you just need another woman to talk you you know ??
I am just fed up with feeling like beacuse I haven't had the same best friend since the 3rd grade that I am a lower class woman. I mean surely there has to be other woman out there that really want a best friend right ???
I guess not. I know all this sounds sooooo stupid but I am just so desperate for any conversation with anyone that doesn't have chest hair right now lol !!!!
Sorry for the rant I am just going through something I guess !!!!