beansthemama

Just need to vent!

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, 11-29-2008 at 04:43 PM (500 Views)

Ok all who are reading, my life has been kinda hard latly. My hubby is a recovering alcoholic who has had two major slips just in this month. One Tuesday night I was up til 2 in the morning, showering him, steam cleaning carpets, doing laundry, and cleaning up the other areas of vomit that he created. He states that he is sorry, but there comes a point when actions speak louder than words. No words can describe the disappointment I feel. But because he apologizes I should forgive and move on.....haha harder than it sounds girls!
There is too much that happend for me to go into detail, but the long story short is I am tired. I am 29 with two kids, I left my carrer to be a mom, now that is my job, and I have a hubby who can't control his addiction at times.
If you are wanting to know, yes I love my husband when he doesn't drink. Having to bath your 33 year old husband, and clean up after him is distburbing~Not to mention gross. It makes me angry that he hides things from me, and lies to me about this illness. Not much that I can do but discuss it with my counceler, at least I am doing one postive thing at this time. I am at the point where something has to give with this. It ruined my whole Thanksgiving, I was supposed to go shopping for black friday and was so sleep deprived that all I did yesterday was nap, I am beginning to feel like I am not myself anymore. I just kept telling myself that the good Lord is walking with me in all of this, that he has his hands on my shoulder's, he is giving me stregth for my children, and to wake up everyday! I keep thinking of that christian song " For sorrow may last for one night, but joy comes in the morning"
Thanks for listening, I needed to get the frustration out. Take care.

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bcoffey68359 - 11-30-2008 08:16 AM
wow - that is a lot to deal with - my dad is an recoving alcholic and he has been dry for years , but it took a major life altering event to change him. When he was drunk he hit and killed two teenage kids -The only way your husband will quit is if he really want to - does your husband go to a.a? - if so get him a buddy - to have to call when temptation is to great . The Lord is with you -keeping you & your children safe - I will pray for your family Bobbi -ne
beansthemama - 11-30-2008 03:19 PM
wow - that is a lot to deal with - my dad is an recoving alcholic and he has been dry for years , but it took a major life altering event to change him. When he was drunk he hit and killed two teenage kids -The only way your husband will quit is if he really want to - does your husband go to a.a? - if so get him a buddy - to have to call when temptation is to great . The Lord is with you -keeping you & your children safe - I will pray for your family Bobbi -ne

Thank you for your support
Mrs H - 11-30-2008 03:27 PM
You all are in my prayers.
My grandmother always said, 'God never puts on you what he thinks you can't handle' tho I must say, at times I have truly wondered about that statement when life dealt me some hard hills to climb.
I grew up in with an alcoholic parent, and I remember as if it were yesterday.
My heart and blessings are with you and your family. I hope your husband can get well.
beansthemama - 11-30-2008 05:57 PM
You all are in my prayers.
My grandmother always said, 'God never puts on you what he thinks you can't handle' tho I must say, at times I have truly wondered about that statement when life dealt me some hard hills to climb.
I grew up in with an alcoholic parent, and I remember as if it were yesterday.
My heart and blessings are with you and your family. I hope your husband can get well.

Thank you, your grandma was right, I am a believer! God Bless
danghsia - 12-01-2008 07:34 PM
wow that sound like alot
I hope you and you family are all well

God bless you
Niddi - 12-01-2008 10:10 PM
Glad you vented, sometimes it helps just to talk. Many of us are dealing with an alcoholic family member and understand your pain. May God give you the strenght you need to deal with your situation.