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Feeling low

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Going through lots of testing this week and next to check and see if cancer has returned. I'm already exhausted and and so tired I wonder why I've let them push me into this again. I know I'm only doing it to please DH. Signs are showing and he's away and scared out of his wits. I've fought this battle for over 30 years and am ready to give up. He gave us the big scare last year and I think he feels it's up to me to take care of this no matter what so that he doesn't have to go into retirement alone. I guess within reason I will take care of it. I'm a firm believer that if it's your time than it's over. So I guess I'll go find out what I'm facing before deciding what to do. If it's small and isolated I'll fight but if it's spread out then I'll throw in the towel with out a fight. But maybe I'm distressed and fearing nothing at all so will put it all aside and wait until all the test results are in.

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  1. Liss's Avatar
    Wow, I truly hope that it's a case of you feeling a bit rundown from doing far too much and a touch of winter frustration and eagerness for spring.
    I can understand the frustration of dealing with doctors, feeling lousy and waiting for tests. My thoughts are with you and your family and I hope that this is a false scare. Hang in there hon, try to get some rest, please don't give up quite yet.
  2. wilbe95's Avatar
    Have you heard any news? I know we only visit online here but I want you to know that I really look forward to all of the information you share with us. Please keep me updated. My thoughts are with you.
  3. brchbell's Avatar
    They wouldn't tell me the results of yesterday's testing but quickly called back saying I had to meet with a surgeon this coming Monday to get the results. I also have another day of testing next Thursday so guess I'm hanging in limbo until then.
  4. FreebieQueen's Avatar
    *Passes you a mug of hot tea*

    hey hon, just checking in to see how you're doing and how you're feeling . . .

    hugs,

    liss
  5. bcoffey68359's Avatar
    Brchbell - hope everything is going well !! Our family will be praying for your -take care of yourself !! Bobbi -ne
  6. FreebieQueen's Avatar
    Hey hon, I was sorry to read that your cancer is back. Any word from your surgeon yet on what they can do? It might not help alot, but lavender essential oil (added to a light carrier oil) and rubbed on the temples and back of the neck might help relieve your headaches a bit. I know that when my aunt was fighting cancer this was one of the few things that helped her relax a little and relieved her headaches.

    Hugs & thinking of you,
    Liss